What kind of underwear do u wear?

Today I'm not feeling quite right, makan banyak sangat agaknya semalam. So while wearing my panties after bathing 15 minutes ago, I suddenly thought why do I always love to buy colorful, retro-colored panties? Does the choice of pattern and color reveal my personality? If yes, then what is my personality? So, I was wondering as I searched my own panties, what is the personality of a person wearing certain underwear. While reading the list below, you can check what underwear you are wearing right now. Just check, but don't check it too long nanti orang kata kau kira bulu.


WOMEN

a. High-cut briefs

Or it's other name, "grandma's underwear". It is also a type of underwear that after going through the evolution process, is widely known as BOXER. Whoever wears these underwear is the one who values ​​perfection, comfort and practicality. They don't care about style, asal pakai sudah. They say they don't dress to impress. Don't be fooled by the glamorous and pretty awek-awek di luar sana because trust me, every woman will definitely have this kind of underwear even a piece. Toksah la kata tak pernah ada. Aku ada gak buat pakai masa mengandung dulu. Tapi tak pakai selalu, tak bernapas pusat aku.


b. Boy shorts or thong

Women who wear these underwear are confident and love the challenge. The challenge here is that they have high physical endurance because these underwear are also very painful when worn for long periods of time. Seperti menghiris celahan bontot ok? Those who wear these kind of underwear often intentionally expose kelibat seluar dalam while wearing low cut jeans. Sambil duduk sambil menampakkan alur pantat masing-masing. Tapi tak apa, mungkin juga bontot mereka seksi tak seperti bontot aku yang leper that's why dia suka tunjuk. But, it's really challenging to put on these underwear. I've been wearing it for about half a day only, itu pun dah jalan mengengkang. Tu belum lagi kejap-kejap dia terselit celah bontot. Naik darah aku pakai seluar ni.


c. The need to match

There are also women who like to wear bra with the same color as the panties. They belong to the fashion-conscious and self-indulgent group. They are the type that like to stand in front of the mirror while looking at their own tits and boobs berlama-lama. Maybe obses dengan bra and panty yang sedondon itu. Sometimes I wonder why you need to buy bra and panties of the same color and design? Do you want to wear bra and panties outside of clothes? Tapi takpelah, own satisfaction hagaknya.


LELAKI

a. Boxers

Boxers are one of the most comfortable underwear in the world, just like granny panties. Guys wearing boxers are a simple and laidback guy. They also don't care if the underwear they wear is less 'grip'. But I wonder if there's no impact dari penggunaan seluar dalam ini dalam tempoh yang lama untuk jangka masa panjang? Ada kemungkinan pada usia anda 40 tahun nanti, belum pun bontot anda cecah ke kerusi, telur anda sudah mencecah lantai dulu.


b. Briefs 

Also known as tightie-whities. Sold in bright colors like navy blue and yellow. Hijau pucuk pisang pun ada. Merah saga is the best. Those who wear this type of underwear are a little "little brother". Cute and playful with colors. Because they are little brothers, they need the maximum 'protection'. I don't really like men wearing these kind of underwear. Sebab itu saya benci Superman walaupun saya suka kaler merah.


c. Boxer-briefs

Two worlds pants. Seluar 2 alam. Men who wear this kind of underwear are smart in their relationships, they know how to compromise since they've done it with their underwear! It's hard to tell bagaimana perangai mereka yang sebenar. There may also be a split personality. If you are suspicious of men like this you can ask them to show off their underwear first, just to be sure. Masa dia tunjuk tu, you can estimate anything that is necessary to ensure your future well-being.


d. Thong

Men wearing thongs can be considered exhibitionists. Suka menayang spender. To them, I'd like to say, if you want to tayang spender, make sure bulu jangan tersentl-sentil, ok?


e. No underwear

This kind of guy might forget to do laundry or the kind of guy who loves nature, embraces the natural way of life. A humble and timid person. He is so shy to buy his own underwear, tu pasal tak pakai lansung.

Psycho

This afternoon I spent about an hour, chatting with my friend over the phone. She told me about her love story - her boyfriend is a psycho! That actually brought back some awful memories, to the time when I was in my 2nd year. I was in love with this man - he did so many things for me, treated me like a princess, we had some common interests, everything at the beginning was easy and fun. His name is F............UKKER.

I loved this guy for 3 years. For 6 months it was a bliss, but then the problems started, and it got worst and worst. My ex had a history of problems, bad relationship and abuse but he seemed so nice, especially for the first 6 months when it seemed like all the cliche movie "the one true love" stuff came true. Then next, I found my life was a living hell.

He argued with me almost every day, sometimes cursing me out and insulting me for hours and hours. I've been lied to constantly, manipulated constantly, on a level so intense I didn't even notice until I found his diary. To my surprise, he still keep in touch with ALL his ex-es. And this is bukan-cinta-biasa ok? He spent a lot of money and time talking over the phone with all of them, and bersiar-siar menghirup udara segar everytime balik cuti. When I confronted him about cheating, he said I was insecure and paranoid then he started to talk about unrelated things. He made me think that it was MY fault. It was really difficult to confront him. His reaction was all over the map!

I can still remember the times when I spent almost every night crying, sometimes waking up thinking about all the things he did. It hurts. I was like walking on eggshells. There would always be promises to change like "I'm going to change, I love you, you're the one for me, I'm never going to hurt you again" and afterwords when I took him back it got worst and worst. Every time I tried to break it off he would come crying, saying he will injure or kill himself. And I tell you, he even cut his wrist in front of me, once. And being trapped in a sehati-sejiwa-sehidup-semati world, I came back. It happened again and again where I would always come back, and sometimes the next day or even the next hour the abuse would continue.

I wish I could turn back time, because I wish I never met him! He is a type of person who could be so nice, supportive one minute and such a crazy mean person the next. And I mean really crazy gila babi type. I wish he would not be psycho, creating stories up saying things about me that are not true.

I can't believe how good he was at manipulating me, and all how could someone be nice, great, loving, sweet one hour and a complete aggressive creep the next, when nothing happened within that hour? Sometimes I wonder why some people have the capacity to be so sick, so twisted, cruel one minute then so nice next minute then suddenly cursing, yelling and spitting in my face, the face he claimed was the most beautiful face he had ever seen.

I have broken up with him finally, in early 1998. I've been keeping busy, doing everything I wanted, and mostly I'm doing good, but when I remember everything I've been through, I regret to have known him.

Siapa kata aku tak pernah gemuk??

I was flipping thru my photo albums when I stumbled on this pic of mine, wearing a red sweater (PICTURE REMOVED). It was taken in year 1998, when I was at home for a semester break. Siapa bilang aku tidak pernah kegemukkan? Aku bisa mengulanginya kau mahu. Malam ini sahaja aku sudah membelasah sepinggan nasi berlauk dan baru 2 jam sudah, aku melantak sekeping roti telur di mamak Bistro. Sekarang aku merasa lapar lagi. Mungkin sekejap lagi aku akan memasak maggi asam laksa.

I didn't even know I was really fat. I remember back in my early days in matriculation, guys started calling me mushrooms. Some called me cendawan cina. I was like "Mushroom? Why cendawan cina?". Nak kata aku fair & lovely, amat mustahil. Orang buta warna pun tau aku hitam. My friends said maybe because I'm short and cute, so they called me that way. Then I realized the Chinese mushrooms were short, fat and black. Bangkai betul.

So, during the semester break for 3 months, I only ate rice once a day and the rest of the day I took biscuits with tea O. By the third month, I was starting to feel like vomiting everytime I smelled the biscuits. That's enough. I lost 13kg! That puts me at 41kg. What a success!!

Then the culture shock began.
Bila dah kurus mulalah scratch-scratch (read : gatal-gatal) to wear all these tight clothes. I started thinking that I looked pretty good at 41kg, but my sister said I was like a jerangkung dalam almari. Dengan cengkungnya, dengan muka macam orang sakitnya. Mak aku pulak bagi nasik tambah "Ini bukan kurus, ini kecut!". Ah, tak kisahlah. Kecut-kecut pun breast kekal menten.

Apparently because the weight has dropped drastically, from 1998 till 2004 I have maintained at 41-42kg. The heaviest weight to date is 59kg, during pregnancy. Big belly, big tits, big boobs. And now, I've given up to lose my weight. Lantak kat situ nak naik sampai 47kg pun. My hubby always said that big women are more sexier, if I have a bit of fat, at least he can grab on to something. Hahaha.

Hikayat seorang aku dan Bintulu

Kejadian di bawah berlaku semalam...

Pukul 2 pagi aku dah terjaga (dijagakan sebenarnya), kena siap2 gi airport. Dah la tido kul 11 mlm. Pedih gila mata aku masa nak bangun, rasa macam nak jadi buta. Ngantok siaall. Mandi sejuk2 lagi, apa punya rumah, heater pun takde. Dah siap2 semer, kul 2.45 pg, aku blah gi airport. part ni lagi aku cuak. Kena drive sensorang, lalu depan area construction, kedai2 kosong, gelap takyah cerita la. Kepala otak aku masa ni la sibuk nak tunjuk skill imagination tinggi. Aku dah terbayang, tetiba nanti ada langsuir jatuh betul-betul depan windshield aku. Tak pun ada makhluk Allah kat seat blakang, siap senyum lagi. "Sorang je Diana?"
Ok, dah..dah!!

::nampak tu..5 am OK?? Orang lain terbongkang atas katil, aku dah tercangak bangak kat KLIA::

Sementara nak tunggu flight aku yg kol 5 pagi tu (saje je management nak pedajal aku la ni, aku tau dah), aku cam biasa gi la bfast kat peberet spot aku, Suria Cafe. Aku order teh tarik (aku tak rasa dia bagi aku teh tarik, mcm rasa hot choc!) and mee (mee sejuk yang dimakan di airport yg sejuk di pagi2 buta yg sejuk, OK?). Kembang anak tekak aku nak perabiuskan mee tu. 4 suap je. Kalau aku sumbat lagi satu suap, harus terbelahak kat situ gak.

::Mi sejuk a.k.a mi semalam (aku rasa laa..)::

::Teh tarik perasa milo. Aku mmg allergic dgn milo and coffee. Bau pun rasa nak muntah. So bleh bayangkan betapa muka aku kejung nak tahan muntah bila minum air puaka ni::

Seperti biasa la, kalau dah nama naik katerbang tu, penyakit sakai aku pun muncul. Aku ni penakut a.k.a. jakun kalau part kena fly ni. Bak kata mak aku, macam tak penah naik plane. Ini la satu-satunya kenderaan yg aku ada kalau nak balik cuti time study dulu, tapi walaupun demikian, aku tetap takut everytime nak naik. Apa kena aku tak tau. Kalau ada lain option, mcm tongkang Indon ke, sahih aku pilih tongkang. Kawan aku cakap 'apa ko nak takut, kalau jatuh pun ke bawah, bukan ke atas'. Lawak la tu kan? Memang la bangang, saper ajar ko jatuh ke atas? Kalau jatuh tak berkecai takpe beb, ini mau bersepai tulang2 aku.

Masa nak take off tu la saat paling seriau. Aku fobia benda laju. Kira orait lagi la pagi tu aku naik MAS, turbulence tak seteruk AA. Gila aaa, everytime aku naik AA, time take off tu, siap ada bunyik skreet...skreeeett..pastu ngongngongngongngong...bangsat ok? Aku tak kisah kalau ko tak serve food or ko jual maggi mee RM5. Aku leh terima. Tapi kalau ko guna enjin bunyik cam mesin air batu campur, you are too much man.

Atas flight tu aku bantai tido (mmg ini aktiviti wajib tiap kali naik katerbang, untuk mengelakkan aku terasa turbulence). Aku pantang gegar-gegar ni. Sampai Kuching (aku kena transit Kuching before ke Bintulu), kol 6.45am. Next flight 11.30am. Cibai kan?? Apa aku nak buat sampai 4 jam? Nak suruh aku lepak kat cafe mentekedarah lagi?? Nasib baik aku bawak RD aku yg 2 bulan punya tak baca2 lagi. Habis 4 jam, habis jugak satu issue RD.

::sunyi dan kosong. Nak tunggu kul 11.30am, sempat aku berkenalan ngan 3 makcik cleaner::

::RD pertama::

::RD kedua::

Sampai Bintulu, 12.30am. Kena rush gi UPM, settle apa2 yg patut, then by 3pm dah kena terpacak depan kaunter AA. Omigod!! Aku balik naik AA????? Ok, fine. Janji aku sampai KL. Time beratur nak boarding tu, elok je lps staff AA tu koyak tiket aku, SHITTTTTTT!!!!! Pagi tadi aku park keta kat KLIA sebab aku naik MAS. Balik KL, aku turun LCC!!!!!! Apesal aku blur sgt hari ni ha?? Amacam bleh lupa ni? Nak tepon bagitau laki aku tak? Kena nasik tambah ngan dia lak kang. Dia mmg dah paham sgt ngan perangai clumsy aku ni. Tunggu masa je nak bambu aku. Takpe...kontrol.

Kan betul aku cakap, asal aku naik AA je, sure "sila-pasangkan-tali-keledar-anda-kita-sedang-mengalami-cuaca-buruk" all the way. Tension aku. Aku paksa mata tido gak. Sampai LLC, amik taxi gi KLIA.
Pakcik tu tanya aku apesal baru turun katerbang dah nak gi airport sana pulak?
Saya nak gi Tganu pulak pakcik, tiket AA dah habis. (pakcik boleh tolong bawak je tak taxi ni, jangan tambah kemaluan saya ok?

Management sucks!!

Hari ni dah la aku lonely, hubby gi outstation.
Period pain lak. So, ingatkan today malas nak kuar jumpa customer,nak lepak je la ngadap PC and buat la apa2 yg patut, backlogs pun menambun. Alih-alih bos aku suruh gi Bintulu esok pagi flight 5am.

Jadi, pukul berapakah harus aku bergerak dr rumah? Kol 3am, ok?
Then, kul berapakah harus aku bangun tido nak siap2 semer? Pukul 2am ok?
So, perlukah aku tido kalau setakat kol 2am dah nak kena bangun? Or haruskan aku santak tengok TV malam kang sampai kol 2am, pastu esok jumpa customer mula la aku tersangap-sangap, menguap macam nak rabak mulut???

Dah la gi sana rush, lagi mau siapkan tender sehari suntuk Rabu ni. Pastu on the same day aku kena gerak lam kol 5++pm camtu, straight gi airport, catch flight to Kuching, stay 1 nite, then next morning fly balik ke Bintulu. Macam Bintulu tu sekangkang kera je dr rumah aku. Pegi pagi, petang balik. Pagi subuh, malam2 kang balik. Esok pagi kul 8.30am boleh gi opis dan buat muka ceria cam biasa. Aku leteeeeeeeeeeey la keje camni. Dah la hubby aku pun outstation gak. Aku pun sama naik outstation. Abis anak aku? Seb baik ada bibik, kalau tak, mana aku nak campakkan? Aper aku takde laki ke yang nak diromenkan malam rabu ni? Tapi itu bukan motifnya. Yang aku hangin tu..too rush for a work la. Terkejar sana sini, produktif ke camtu? Suka-suka je nak suruh aku gi sinun kul 4-5 pg, pastu aku kena melangok kat airport sampai 7 jam tunggu flight balik KL sebab ko kedekut nak mampos nak spend duit book kan hotel utk aku lepak.

Kisah hotel...apa kejadah la letakkan aku kat HOTEL LIWAH! Hotel separuh bintang aku rasa. Aku tau la gred aku tak layak untuk yang 5 bintang, ko letak yg 2 bintang pun aku tak kecik ati beb. Kalau dah tau takde bajet, jgn suruh aku gi ok???
Aku bukan jenis memilih nak lepak hotel kelas2 atasan ni. Aku tak heran la ko bagi 17 bintang pun. Aku cuma mintak some consideration. Ko dah hantar aku mendadak-dadak, pastu lagi mau pilih aku kena naik AA ke MAS ke, pastu lagi mau bajetkan hotel. Aku tak pegi lansung kang. Pastu mcm takde apa-apa je kan bila suruh aku gi malam2 buta, subuh-subuh sepi-i. Sungguh berasa diriku ini laksana call girl.
Tapi..apa2 pun satu kejadian telah berlaku ptg tadi yang menyebabkan aku telah terpaksa meng'pass'kan agenda pegi ke Bintulu on Thusrday nnt ke collegue aku. Sebab?? Ade laaaa....

Dah..dah..aku nak pi bancuh teh susu. Bontot aku tak bersimen cam ko Ah Beng, buat milo pun malas, suruh org lain bancuhkan. Kalau aku la tea lady tu...harus aku letakkan julap. Biar 'bersimen' bontot ko kat jamban sehari suntuk!

Rindu laa..

Hari ni adelah antara hari-hari bersejarah selama aku kejer kat sini - aku datang opis before 8.30am!!

Haha..sampai Ann nampak aku masuk opis pun, she was like, "uiks???". Ye, hari ni aku bangun awal sebab pukul 5 pg tadi dah bangun hantar hubby gi airport. Hantar kat gate je. Aku offer nak hantar, dia kata takyah sebab gi ngan 3 lagi member kilang dia, nak bawak keta. Letak keta kat airport sebab gi sehari je. Tapi bawak keta aku!!!!! Hilang keta aku, jaga!

So....hari ni aku melanyak Honda buat tah keberapa kali aku lupa, yang pastinya memang best bawak keta CC besar, ditambah pula bila minyak dah diisi penuh oleh tuan punya keta. Terasa macam ntah hapa hapa pulak Aveo aku tu. Hoh..eksennya bawak keta pinjam.

Balik pd citer bangun pagi tadi. Sebenarnya aku dah try nak tido balik, dah set jam kul 7am. Aku lak period, apehal nak bangun pagi kan. Golek golek golek..takleh tido gak. Sebab malam tadi aku dah layan satu citer hantu. Malam ni nak tido pun satu hal gak, takkan aku nak tido ngan bibik. Cepat la balik baaaaaaaaaaanggggg!!!!!!!!

I miss you already!!!!!
Tak fokus nak buat keje dah..
Takde mood nak buat keje dah..
Nak buat camne ni???
Balik ahhhh...

Bestnye kalau dapat buat sekali seumor hidup

Tak payah gi keje tapi hujung bulan dapat gaji
Best aper bangun kul 10am, boleh golek-golek termenung lagi dalam setengah jam, pastu tak yah gosok baju, lepas mandi boleh pakai bra ngan skirt je, pastu boleh YM secara terang-terangan sambil pasang MP3 kuat2, lepak depan laptop sambil sebelah kaki naik atas kerusi..iskk..best!! best!! Bolehkah ia menjadi kenyataan? Ataupun aku sekadar berada di alam Alice in the Wonderland? Aku buleh aper buat keje dari rumah. Laptop, internet access, pricings, notes semer lengkap. Saje je management jaki ngan aku. Nak gak tengok punch card aku full. Dah la still guna punch card lagi. Woih! Makcik nasik lemak ayam madu tu pun dah guna swipe card la dol! Tak vast lansung.

Menekan button CLOSE DOOR bila nampak ada orang berlari ke arah lif
Pernah buat ni? Aku pernaaaaaaahhh...dan nikmatnya pergghhhhhhhh...hingga ke tulang hitam! Adela satu sister ni punyala vogue, pakai pump shoes, rambut legally blonde, bawak tote bag, pakai half cut jeans and halter neck top. Memangla cun..tapi takyah la control gaya ko sampai bejalan pun kejung semacam je. Lalu depan brader2 yg tgh lepak hisap rokok lak tu. Control ayu la...hah meh sini aku tambahkan ko punya ayu. Aku selamba aje tekan gila punya press sampai nak terbenam button CLOSE tu bila nampak dia berlari ala-ala di tepian pantai nak kejarkan lif. Ape punya bingai. Dah tau nak kejar lif, kangkang luas2 la sikit. Ko bukan pakai skirt pun. Hamik kau...

Tak kasik keta merge into traffic walaupun dia dah bagi signal
Memang tak beretika. Tapi best kalau dapat buat se-das. Aku penah try buat sekali. Malangnya keta aku yg kena sagat. Tu la..nak carik gaduh ngan lori lagi. Aku sumpah 7 keturunan jadik kelindan! Aku kena buat lagi sekali pasni...dengan menggunakan kereta orang lain.

Rolling my eyes bila ada org tanya soalan
Alternative utk 'no comment'. Belum penah try lagi. Tak reti aku...dah la mata aku juling air, sekali aku rolling, dibuatnya mata hitam aku hilang terus, tak ke naya.

Menyalahkan org lain walaupun diri sendiri salah demi men'kaber' malu
Ni mamang bangsat betul. Teringin nak buat gak sebelum aku mati. Sebab org selalu buat kat aku!!!!!!!!!!!

Malas bangun bila dah tido
Ini adelah antara 10 nikmat dunia. 9 daripadanya adelah seks...HAHAHHAHAHAH. Dan ia menduduki tangga teratas dalam life aku. Tido adelah ibadah ok???

Menghuru-harakan hidup seseorang dalam sehari
Aku teringin nak huru harakan hidup ex-bf aku dan bininya. Bestnya kalau aku dapat balas balik apa dia buat kat aku. Call dia hari-hari, sms tengah2 mlm, biar bini dia suspect sikit. Pastu aku hantar email-email porno kat dia kasik ghairah. Dia ni pantang org seduce...gerenti masuk trap punya. Pastu ajak makan2...date lebih kurang..gesel-gesel adelah perlu kerana itu senjata utama. Pastu suruh org snap gambar aku ngan dia tengah bergeselan, then pos kat wife dia yg 'I executive tau' tu (ni tektik drama minggu ni, aku takde idea baru la). Padan muka!! Ape ko ingat laki ko tu hensem sgt? Satu Uni bertolak-tolak rejectkan laki ko..ko je yg nak stok-stok lebihan tu. And please la..takyah la nak tuduh aku pompuan kejam sebab tinggalkan exbf aku tu sampai merana. Bukan aku sorang yg tinggalkan dia beb. Sowey la, wa tak ambik kaki spedo buat laki.

Menjawab soalan dengan soalan
Kenapa anda ambil girlfren saya? = Kenapa? Tak bolehkah?
Kenapa anda makan McChicken saya? = Oh! McChicken andakah yang saya telan itu?
Kenapa anda begitu lancau mengambil sales saya setelah saya penat mencarik lead? = ..jawablah kalau berani, sampai ke anak tekak penumbuk aku masuk kang.

Honking my horn kat keta depan walaupun dah jelas traffic light merah
Horn gila2..pastu buat bodoh (buat muka seposen Saiful Apek). Pastu siap turunkan tingkap lagi buat2 toleh keta belakang, saje nak konpiuskan org.

Terbeliakkan bijik mata kat budak umur 4 tahun
Tengah2 mak dia tunggu org bungkuskan rojak, kita jegilkan bijik mata kat anak dia yang berdiri kat sebelah. Lagi besar mata lagi best. Pastu siap tunjukkan penumbuk sikit. Mesti tercebik-tecebik dia. Agak2 cebikkan dia tu dah takleh kontrol, blah. Best aper..carik gaduh ngan samseng dah sah-sah aku kalah kan?

Sepak pasu bunga jiran sebelah
Rumah aku end lot, so jiran yg betul2 sebelah belum pindah. Yang sebelah lagi tu jauh la pulak. Lambat betul jiran aku ni pindah. Ntah ada pasu bunga ke tak nanti. Before pegi keje sepak dulu sebijik kasik murah rezeki dan panjang umur. Esok sepak sebijik lagi, kalau nak rahmat besar sepak je sliding door dia. Hey..apehal la aku nak sepak pasu org ni???

Meludah
Macam macho je meludah kat public kan? Ala-ala samseng pun ada gak. Sure gerun org pandang aku walaupun aku pakai baju kurung time tu sambil pegang payung and sebelah tangan bawak beg plastik Maidin.

Gelakkan org buta jatuh longkang
Weh...tapi ni gila punya lahanat keji sial la...tak boleh..tak boleh...

Do you have a pleasant personality?

I somehow bumped into a 'monkey' yang sungguh la 'ado' a few weeks ago. Aku rasa dia ni ada split personality cum mental disorder. Jenis tak boleh tgk org senang sikit, tak boleh tgk hidup kita lagi bahagia dari dia. Kecik-kecik takmo mampos, dah tua kedarah menyusahkan org! Aku rasa dia punya alter-ego ni is Jin Aprit la.

Okey, cut the craps, so, guys, something to brighten up your day! I know you've been longing for this.

The first thing that you do is add the month, date, and year that you were born.
**(example 11/23/57 = 11+23+1957 = 1991)

You take the sum and add these numbers (1+9+9+1=20)

If the total of your number is 22 or more, you would add those numbers as well to come up with a number that is 21 or below. For example, if your sum was 22, you would add 2+2 = 4.

Once you know your card's number, please refer to the below description.

p/s : dun ask where did I get this, buat je la sudahhh.

# 2 High Priestess:
You may make most of your choices intuitively and change them. You may be a good listener. Other people may talk freely to you about themselves and their worries. In your non judgmental acceptance, they see their ideas and feelings mirrored back to them.

# 3 The Empress:
You may be fertile with creative ideas and yet may lack in the discipline necessary to give them form or the aggression necessary to market them. Your power comes from love and you rule through understanding the needs of others. You may have a desire to take care of others.

# 4 The Emperor:
You may enjoy controlling your situations, and it may be difficult for you to work for others. You may have a need to be in charge or with positions of authority. Most Emperors eventually find that they are self-employed. You may demand that there is structure and order in your environment.

# 5 The Hierophant:
You have the ability to translate information so that others can better understand it. You have the ability to communicate. You can be a good listener, seeing that there is more than what is presented. You may enjoy giving advice and helping people solve their problems. People will come to you for help because they respect your expertise and knowledge and know that you are willing to help them.

# 6 The Lovers:
You learn most about yourself through the people with whom you have relationships. Unrestricted and honest communications are vital. You may also be consumed with whatever it is that your involved with, be it a relationship or an activity.

# 7 The Chariot:
You may take your job and personal life very seriously. You like being in the driver's seat exerting control over situations. With your mind firmly fixed on your goals, you can move quickly and surely toward them. Unexpected events and emotional scenes are disrupting. You may wear a shield too protect yourself or to keep others from knowing your true feelings.

#8 Strength:
You can be calm and collected in emergencies, for you possess an instinctive understanding that showing fear is dangerous. Instead, you use firmness and gentleness to handle the situation, first calming the panic, then examining the needs. You may be an overtly emotional person. You have a need to understand your emotions, not suppress them. This takes courage for people will try to pressure you into conforming. You may have to struggle between your own inner needs and the demands of work and society.

#9 The Hermit.
You may need to be alone, to have time to your self. You may feel that you must work through your own problems and can only make decisions for yourself and yet you are available to assist others. You may some feeling of isolation, but also an inner strength that comes from facing the unknown alone. You may serve as some kind of a teacher or role model for others. People may confide in you because they know that you will not betray their trust. You know how and when to keep secrets. You teach best by living what you believe in, but you may expect others to meet your standards. You may be a bit of a perfectionist, and difficult to live with.

#10 The Wheel of Fortune:
You learn through change. You may gamble and take risks for the challenges they present you. You may present flexibility and the ability to grasp opportunities when they happen. You may be easy going and forgiving. You ride the low points knowing that such extremes are temporary. The Wheel of Fortune represents change, movement, and expansion of ideas. It is a card of luck, both good and bad. As the wheel turns, new opportunities appear and old projects reach a new turn.

#11 Justice:
You need to be true to yourself, learn your mistakes by evaluating people, situations, and beliefs that you trust. You weigh the pros and cons and try to may try to make everything equal and/or fair. You may need to learn to use both logic and intuition to balance you judgements.

#12 The Hanged Man:
You may devote yourself so completely to your work, art, or cause that you become oblivious to yourself. You give without thought of receiving. Others may feel you have lost your mind, but you see something that escapes others and with this vision, you can accomplish wonders.

#13 Death:
You may become totally involved in your experiences, but may not always be aware of the consequences. You bring passion and depth to whatever you do and do not take things lightly. You may easily let go of old ways of thinking in order to transform or renew. One tends to learn more by facing their mortality.

#14 Temperance:
You may be a humanist, filled with compassion for the feelings and failings of others because you recognize them first in yourself. You may look for ways to aid the growth of others. You may use teaching as a mode of healing. You may need to learn to balance your passions so that they do not become obsessive.

#15 The Devil:
This card represents raw, untamed power and creativity. You may prefer a structured setting that can contain your fears and keep them separate from your sense of "self". You may either take your self too seriously or you see yourself laughing at your all-too-human qualities.

#16 The Tower:
It is within you to be an individual, your shadowy aspects are pride, arrogance, and a belief that you are beyond the rules that govern others. Your life may have major ups and downs, but with each disaster, you should continue with determination and build again, sometimes in a completely new direction.

#17 The Star:
This means that you are innovative. You are way ahead of your time, an inventor and visionary. You like to experiment and are willing to try anything once. You are able to see possibilities far in the future and yet don't always know how to relate to your immediate circumstances. You may appear cool and distant, but inside you burns a light of inspiration.

#18 The Moon:
The moon represents intuition and delving deep into the unconscious. Like the moon, your own intuition has moments when it is peaked. You may find your self in the right place at the right time. There may be other times when your intuition has deceived you. It is up to you to learn your cycles. You may be interested by the unseen and the unknown, the strange, and even the macabre. Your life may tend to run in cycles like the moon.

#19 The Sun:
You radiate your belief that others can accomplish their dreams and you are an inspiration to them. Your trust brings out their best. With a Sun personality, you are basically optimistic and cheerful and always looking for the light side of things.

#20 The Judgement card:
You can be a valued friend and loyal partner, and yet, keep a strong sense of your own independence and self-worth. I show your soul card to be that of the High Priestess. You may make most of your choices intuitively and change them. You may be a good listener. Other people may talk freely to you about themselves and their worries. In your non judgmental acceptance, they see their ideas and feelings mirrored back to them.

#21 The World (ini suku sakat MAWI):
You may need to learn to work within structure and learning your limitations. You may need to establish personal discipline if you wish to accomplish something.

Takyah susah2 la nak tolong kira part aku lak. Buat korang sakit ati je....HAHAHHAHAHAH dan HAHAHAHAHAHH lagi.

p/s : I longed for peace and quite.

I am..

I am...

FAT!!

I am currently not at my heaviest weight for I have been in a state of big blob so much when I was 18-19 yrs old. And I mean VERY fat! Someone said that I am voluptious, but to me that was just another way of saying "you look a bit plump", in a nice way. I wear S size, but that does not mean I'm fit. I do have flabs here and there. But like my other half said "What do you expect? You are a mother". Aku ni dah macam dipam-pam tapi dia still masih in his teruna weight. Of course lah I expect to get my anak dara weight too. My goal is to be the same girl I was before, I mean the time when I was so slender. I know some say no matter your size, personality counts! Ya aku tau lah tu, tapi kalau nak badan Miss World pun tak salah kan.


AFRAID OF A COMPLETE STRANGER

I am so worry about someone or should I say some pig headed person staring at me. The thing is why must you look at someone in a stupid and rude way?


SICK OF LIES

I can stand people who I don't really close to, telling lies to me. But I have problem with people whom I so chummy with, keeping things from me. That hurts! If I'm supposed to be so important to you, then treat me nicely, boley?


PROCRASTINATING SO MUCH LATELY

I just realized that lately, I tend to procrastinate a lot, especially when it comes to office work. It’s such a hard habit to break free from. But I am aware of my procrastination, so I just got a pop-up reminder on my laptop. Now and I am writing and completing my to-do list. I started to record everything I need to do so that important things get done on time and nothing has a chance to sneak up on me kecuali bergossip di Subhani. Kan dah, tetiba je aku terasa nak minum teh ais.


IMPROVING MY TIME MANAGEMENT SKILLS

I have 2 issues each of Reader's Digest, Cleo and one Cosmopolitan to be read, but somehow I couldn't find a space to fit this into my already jammed schedules! My current routines are pack with office work! Gaji kalau seploh ribu takpe. Manjang je urgent. I haven't decide yet what to do with this but sure enough, I need to take a careful rearrangement of current commitments and responsibilities so as to move aside things that are less important and make room for reading..:). Caranya : benti keje, jual nasik lemak.


HAVING NO REGRETS

I used to regret a lot. But come to think of it, we only get this one chance at life, and there’s no point wasting it regretting things. Looking back, I have made some stupid choices and decisions, but if I think further about them, if I had done things differently, then I wouldn’t be where I am today, living the life I have. So perhaps I wouldn’t do things the same again, but who is to say the alternative would have been any better? But who can predict if one day I may regret something? So, don't think too much about what is about to happen and what has happened. Just lead the life with S.M.I.L.E with a teeth showing *wink*


WORKING SO HARD TO EXPAND MY VOCAB

Reading has always been a fun way to learn new words or see them used in new ways. And that explains why I love reading. I read dictionary and thesaurus too. Aku ni tak study oversea cam kau..vocab gila best. One of the way to gain respect from people is to fancy up our vocab. And that’s what I’m doing but the tricky part is to actually remember all the new words I come across. Dah la aku ni benak sikit. Lupa saje.


SINGING NOW..:)

When it comes to listening to music, I get this desire to sing along no matter who is around. But, I think I’m one of those individuals that have been curse with a horrible voice. Ok, hubby aku suruh aku senyap and tido. Bye.

Aku sangat boring dan boring

Hari ni aku start day aku dengan senyuman. 7.15am, bangun serentak ngan hubby aku, apa kena ntah, masing-masing liat nak bangun hari ni. Pastu seperti biasa bawak tuan muda aku tawaf kawasan rumah ngan keta, layan blues dia jap, then baru gi keje.

But hari ni, aku kena hantar mak metua aku dulu kat station bas S/Alam, tunggu kejap sampai dia dah betul-betul dapat seat, aku pun blah. Rasa malas nak masuk opis sekarang, hari-hari bangun nak MC, hari-hari bangun nak EL, hari-hari bangun nak benti kejer. Hari ni pun malas, jadi aku merayap pi jumpa customer aku jap. Sembang lebih kurang, perut lapar dah ni. Aku sms Ann tak reply. Asal call masuk box. Baru smlm borak2 sambil kutuk bos, kutuk kompeni, takkan today dah resign kot. Hahaha.
Aiseyyy..berat ni. Sape la nak makan ngan aku ni? Azie dah la MC. MC operate ketumbit. Ketumbit pun nak operate. Tenyeh minyak gamat je lah sudah.

Di saat-saat aku menaip article ni, perut aku dah tukar track ke lagu rap. Ni kira klimaks dah ni, si Aini kalau aku kira sampai seploh tak muncul kat depan pintu ni, haruss aku pitam. Tak taulah apesal kebulor sangat ni. Semalam aku tak makan ke? Iskk..makan. Siap makan puding gula hangus lagi. Pehal ntah perut lapar lain macam ni.

Sat lagi nak pi KLIA lak, pastu balik rumah terus.

Ainiiii.....mana nasik goreng akuuuuuuu.

From This Moment On

From This Moment On - Shania Twain

I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything, and everything. And I will always care
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow
For better for worse, I will love you
With every beat of my heart

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
I can't wait to live my life with you, I can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

2 years ago today you put me through the horrible pain of childbirth

Jahit belon. Kau mampu?


Mak metua aku and bibik Yani bertungkus-lumus siapkan makanan.
Aku berlintang-pukang larikan diri sebab taknak tolong. Hahaha.

Kek ni gila besar gedabak, seminggu simpan tak abis

Redza buat hal tetiba terpekik time orang nyanyi lagu birthday. Rupanya dia kepantangan tengok topeng-topeng and bunyik-bunyik trompet ni semua.

Tomorrow is Redza's 2nd birthday. So, the idea of throwing a party for him today instead of tomorrow has been planned a week earlier. At first, I plan to cook myself, just some simple macaroni and nugget-nugget, but since we plan to invite all sedara-mara, takkan nak makan macaroni and nugget kot. Plus with my hubby's must haves, jadi aku pass je lah tugas masak-memasak ni pada orang yang lebih layak. My mom in law came all the way from Tganu just to prepare the food for the party.

Aku tak pandai masak. Tapi itu adelah lagi baik dari aku memasak dan korang cirit-birit sampai 2-3 hari.

We had nasi minyak with gulai kurma daging, ayam masak merah, acar nenas, telur tomato, puding gula hangus and birthday cake. This is not the first party for Redza, but since he's my one and only child so you can imagine how much I want this birthday bash for him. We only invited close relatives and neighbours.

You look so GREEN!!

Someone asked me why I love pink. The truth, I don't really like pink but somehow I feel that any girl will always look pretty in pink so I guess why I always prefer pink. Pink looks good on nearly everyone in every way and is very feminine. Yang kau pulak susah hati aku suka pink apesal?

Ok la, sempena hari merdeka today, aku nak memerdekakan blog aku dari black color because someone told me that my blog look so GOTHIC. I was thinking to paint it with pink but terasa macam blog budak standard 3 la pulak. So, I end up choosing GREEN. Terasa dikelilingi oleh beribu-ribu epal ijau. Natural and calming, kan?

Today I spent my day at my mom's house for my adik was there until this coming Sunday. Today got pesta perut where we had feast of nasi merah, udang goreng besar-besar penumbuk, ayam and a variety of kuih yang saper nak bagi perabis pun aku tak tau lah. Then on our way back home, singgah Jusco Taman Equine, bought some birthday present for Redza,  2 troli beb. 2 beg duit telah kopak di situ so agaknya mencuri sebab nanti takde benda nak lunch.

1. Idea pertama, curi duit laki aku yg dia simpan dalam evelope kat laci spender dia. Duit aper pun aku tak tau, cam banyak je note 5 hengget aku nampak. Duit raya tahun ni ke? Belasaaaahhh...

2. Idea kedua, tabung anak aku. Yang ni kena buat dengan senyap dan tanpa meninggalkan sebarang bukti. Mau aku dirogol oleh hubby aku kalau dia tau.

Dah..aku penat, aku letih, mulut aku ada ulcer, esok kena gi keje tapi aku malas, dah dah.....nak gi tebuk dinding dapur jap....adioooss

p/s : MERDEKAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!

Good bye long hair..

THIS PICTURE HAS BEEN REMOVED

rambut panjang sampai tetek

THIS PICTURE HAS BEEN REMOVED

rambut pendek sampai bahu. sama je kan?

With long hair or short? Hmm....takde beza.

I have been so sick and tired of looking in the mirror and seeing the exact same person again and again. So, today, I got my hair cut and that's what the pic is about. Biasa-biasa je for I have had better. I spent 7 hrs for this.
Not only cut, but I changed my hair color and straightening too. Ya, aku tau aku tak cun, that's why mengalerkan rambut setahun sekali adelah jalan penyelesaian dan usaha-uasaha terakhir bagi menampakkan tempias-tempias cun pada diri ini. I think its going to be a lot easier to handle now. Which is good la kan. Kalau tak, asal aku mandi je, nak keringkan berjam-jam2. Kuyup towel aku.
Tapi sakit bontot sial duduk salon lama-lama. Nasib baik ada banyak mags, mags Cina pun aku bedal.

My rock and my shelter

He is the love of my life, a father to a child, a husband to a wife, and that lucky wife is me.

I'm going to try to speak the words that my heart wants you to know.

I want you to see what you mean to me and why I love you so much. I need nothing more from you than to know that you'll always be mine. We don't know what the future has in store for both of us but this I know, without a doubt, the best is yet to be. I swear that I will always be there and I will give anything and everything and I will always care about you.

"Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better for worse, I will love you with every beat of my heart. From this moment I will love you as long as I live - Shania Twain

Are your love is for real?

I was browsing the internet when this poem caught my eyes...

If you can't keep your eyes off of her, then it is not love, it is LUST.
If you are so eager to show her off to your friends, then it is not love, it is LUCK.
If you need her around because you know she's there,then it is not love, it is LONELINESS.
If you with her because she kissed you, then its is not love, it is LOW CONFIDENCE.
If you stay because you don't want to hurt her, then it is not love, it is PITY.
If you belong to her because the sight of her makes your heart skip a beat and your adrenalin pumped to the highest, then it is not love, it is INFACTUATION.
If you pardon her faults because you care about her, then it is not love, it is FRIENDSHIP.
If you tell her every day she is the only one you think of then it is not love, it is a LIE.
If you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her, then it is not love, it is CHARITY.

Does your heart ache and breaks when she's sad?
Do you cry for her pain, even when she's strong?
Do her eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Do you accept her faults because it's a part of who she is?
Are you attracted to others, but stay with her faithfully without regret?
Would you give her your heart, your life, your death?
Then it is LOVE.

I have had a bad realtionship history and I don't feel like explaining how bad it was. Not yet.
However I have to say this - that I used to date a psycho-moron asshole. I'm not sure if I was too stupid to see his wrong or I was blind to the attention he gave me.

Whatever it is, if there is no joy in love, chances are it is not true love. If you cry all the time and if you also make the person you love cry, ini bukan cinta, ini namanya cilaka. Love is when sama-sama take the responsibility to maintain the relationship and bring joy to the beloved person. To be able to give joy, you must practice looking towards the person you love deeply. Because if you do not understand this person, you cannot love properly. You must practice deep looking in order to gain a good understanding of this person in order to be able to help him or her to change. And if you are able to look at the person's good and bad qualities day in and day out and still want to be with them, then it is true love..:)

The best of friends must part

"We've gone our own ways and I know its for the best, but sometimes I wonder will I ever have a friend like you again?" - from a song by Blink182.
 

So,today me, Ogy, Kak Nenie, Lan and Diana (Lan's gf) had lunch together at Pelaga, a Malay restaurant that serves BUDU!! All of us work in Shah Alam, close to each other, only that we were too occupied with our jobs and daily routines we are unable to meet up.

Ogy has been my fren since our matriculation days back in year 1995 until now. We got to know each other earlier. The story begins in the MARA building, a few weeks before we leave for Kuching. I don't remember much of the story that made us meet, it's something to do with missing documents. Somehow we helped her to resolve the issue. Coincidentally in college, we were given the same house, and then the same room. Our boifrens were good friends and they were roommates too. However, she was the only one who stayed with her boifren until her marriage.

I was born on August 14th, she was born on July 14th.
My husband's birthday is on 7th of Oct, and her husband's birthday is on 7th of Nov.
Both Reza and Hani were both born in September.

And Mazlan...best buddy. He was the one who took care of me when someone who yang sakit otak mengganggu-gugat hidup aku.

Splashes of color - untuk dak Rozie yang malas nak datang rumah aku tapi sibuk nak tengok

Rumah aku macam skolah tadika, semua jenis kaler ada tertempek kat dinding umah.

So, this is my house, a little place to kick up my feet. Still in the process of improvement. I have lot of plans to do to a satisfying house to live in. Hang on!

It has been a year since we moved in last August. We even got ouselves nailed by contractors. Next time if you were to hire some contractor for a renovation, please, please and please find a competent and reliable contractor. The type of contractor that I happened to bumped into was some apek tongkang yang perangai macam bagus!! This cibai apek contractor have some kind of character where they will solicit from door to door. Very determined one. And they will just happen to have materials left over from their previous job ..............and only accepts cash payment.

Alhamdullilah, at last, we managed to finish the renovation parts although it took us 2 miserable months to make it look like a real house. You should look the day we moved in, macam bangsal kapal korek, okeh?

Something wrong with me

Apa kena laaa dengan kepala otak aku sejak dua menjak ni...asik ingat pakwe lama je.

Happy Birthday to me!!

Today I am officially 29.

Another of my year is gone, am getting older but wiser.
Although a birthday is a special day but to me it is just another day.
I didn't find anything special on every 14th of August.
Maybe sebab takde duit nak celebrate. Hahaha.

Speaking about birthday gifts, I don't expect much. A wish will do. However a chocolate will be great. But, this year he bought me a white gold necklace and a bouquet of flowers. He had put a lot of effort to plan this surprise. I, on the other hand, am not the kind who is into elaborate celebrations. Makan-makan will do. Hehe.