2006-09-22

Siapa kata aku tak pernah gemuk??


I was flipping thru my photo albums when I stumbled on this pic of mine, wearing a red sweater (PICTURE REMOVED). It was taken in year 1998, when I was at home for a semester break. Siapa bilang aku tidak pernah kegemukkan? Aku bisa mengulanginya kau mahu. Malam ini sahaja aku sudah membelasah sepinggan nasi berlauk dan baru 2 jam sudah, aku melantak sekeping roti telur di mamak Bistro. Sekarang aku merasa lapar lagi. Mungkin sekejap lagi aku akan memasak maggi asam laksa.

I didn't even know I was really fat. I remember back in my early days in matriculation, guys started calling me mushrooms. Some called me cendawan cina. I was like "Mushroom? Why cendawan cina?". Nak kata aku fair & lovely, amat mustahil. Orang buta warna pun tau aku hitam. My friends said maybe because I'm short and cute, so they called me that way. Then I realized the Chinese mushrooms were short, fat and black. Bangkai betul.

So, during the semester break for 3 months, I only ate rice once a day and the rest of the day I took biscuits with tea O. By the third month, I was starting to feel like vomiting everytime I smelled the biscuits. That's enough. I lost 13kg! That puts me at 41kg. What a success!!

Then the culture shock began.
Bila dah kurus mulalah scratch-scratch (read : gatal-gatal) to wear all these tight clothes. I started thinking that I looked pretty good at 41kg, but my sister said I was like a jerangkung dalam almari. Dengan cengkungnya, dengan muka macam orang sakitnya. Mak aku pulak bagi nasik tambah "Ini bukan kurus, ini kecut!". Ah, tak kisahlah. Kecut-kecut pun breast kekal menten.

Apparently because the weight has dropped drastically, from 1998 till 2004 I have maintained at 41-42kg. The heaviest weight to date is 59kg, during pregnancy. Big belly, big tits, big boobs. And now, I've given up to lose my weight. Lantak kat situ nak naik sampai 47kg pun. My hubby always said that big women are more sexier, if I have a bit of fat, at least he can grab on to something. Hahaha.